We are two months down and into our third month of the year. Have you made your goals or “new year resolution?” Notice the picture above. My new year quote, “I organize my priorities with clarity.” What does this quote mean to you?
As for me, continuing from my last blog {The Very Dirty and Complicated Thirty} In it I stated that since turning thirty, one of the enlightenments I’ve come to know is choosing to use my time wisely. I’m choosing to prioritize certain people in my life, activities I do, life changes that come my way, and most importantly myself.
This year is going to be the start of being active in the dreams and goals I’ve set in my 20s. As they say, your 20s are for planning and your 30s is when you DO! Part of a goal this year is to do at least three new things I have not yet done. As part of my one new “thing” I started Heels Dance Classes [Heels often takes elements from the technicality, fluidity and clean lines of jazz; the confidence, hard-hitting style and intricacy of hip hop; the sensual floorwork inspired by exotic dance; and numerous other styles, including vogue, Latin dance and burlesque]. Specifically this type of class because 1: I’ve already done ballroom type of dances and wanted to try a different style. 2: I wanted something to break out of my shell. I’m actually a pretty shy person, I embarrass easy when it comes to things about myself. For people that know me though they would probably say that I was so outgoing that they wouldn’t believe me saying I was shy. When I feel a little comfortable in my environment and with the people in it. I do tend to break my shell little bit at a time. Now since this is dancing, and it does require you to dance in front of groups of people, it’s even more out of my comfort zone. That leads to 3: I have the worst stage fright/performance anxiety. I’ve had it since forever. It doesn’t matter what it is. When it comes to being up in front of people while the attention is on me. I freeze. It doesn’t matter what it is. I have performance anxiety taking big tests. Even when I’ve studied and know the material in the beginning I’ll have a moment of blanking and spacing out that I sometimes forget everything I know or second guess myself. During sports events sometimes I would get them, but usually I played a lot of team sports growing up so this easily subsided. But when it comes to speeches, projects, reading out loud, and being on stage. I wanted to do something to feel comfortable with myself and heels dance does that. It gets you to be uncomfortable to be comfortable, in a poetic way. Not just in dance but even the attire. Most of the groups dress “risqué” to feel the mood. Also being a little bit conservative in myself this adds to breaking out of my skin, or so to say. Lastly 4: Dancing is a lot of fun. I’ve always found a great stress relief going out and dancing. My husband and I usually go on our date nights ending it at a club or bar with loud music people can dance to. Or the occasional girls night out are things I look forward to once in a while to release. With these intentions I’m hoping that I do learn something from this experience. More so feeling more confident in myself and maybe loosening up. Gain something beneficial no matter what it is, and definitely looking forward to how far I’ll get in skill as I keep attending.
I have not figured out what my other two “new things” are yet. I semi count starting up my blog again as my second new thing (even though it’s not technically). I had also thought of maybe starting up seriously training (with actual training programs and nutritional programs) for a bikini competition. [A bikini competition is a bodybuilding contest for a woman that includes an assessment of the athlete’s muscularity, symmetry, and stage presence. The level of competition can vary from local to international events]. This one is still on the fence for me. This is a lot of commitment physically, mentally, timely, and financially. Definitely right this second isn’t the time but I do think about it and always go back and forth with myself about doing it sooner than later. It is not in my area of expertise, though I do have surrounding peers that are experts in the field. I know I have a lot of support for it. It’s just for me to make that leap a long with timing and money. So we’ll see if this is a goal for this year or somewhere a long my path in my 30s.
I know I skimmed through it last time but since being pregnant again my body went through the women metamorphosis of child birth and postpartum. I do have to say it has been a bit easier getting back to “normal” than the first time I went through this. I believe for me, even though this was probably the most exhausting of my pregnancies, I was still able to do some very light exercises. I also believe because I was very active before this pregnancy I was able to bounce back a little more into my routine. All things are different for everyone but in general being active is always positive. In that regard, I’m still testing my body and how it reacts. So that’s part of the reason I’m not eager to jump at my second “new thing” yet. I’m also trying to see how determined and mentally stable I am for a competition. Any type of athletic commitment takes a toll and if someone goes in not just physically ready but mentally, it can really effect that person short and long term. Put it in a perspective that and you are stressed out about things happening at home/work/relationship on a day to day life. And I’m assuming if you are like the rest of us we all struggle in one or some aspect of this. Now add the fact, your diet has changed, certain foods you indulge in you are not supposed to consume like you used to. Your mood/attitude might change because your body is getting used to the new diet; the “hangry” state. You also have to commit a lot of your time exercising, maybe if you already have a busy life style implementing another activity in your life adds more time management stress trying to hit those goals. So with all that comes with anxiety to make time, to make more effort, more stress to make sure you hit goals and weigh ins, etc…Just like in any other commitment you make. It takes time and energy, and the outcome is determined a lot of how you work and handle yourself during the whole process.
I haven’t thought of anything for a third “new experience” yet. There is still about ten months left. Plenty of time to think or maybe see something that interests me. I hope that maybe this has sparked something to inspire you to find something for yourself this year. Set some new goals for yourself this year. New or something old that you want to continue from before. No matter how big or small they may be it is never too late to do something, to start something, or to inspire yourself to plan something. It has to start somewhere and just considering to do an action might just manifest into existence. “Just remember to organize your priorities with clarity.”